PMS talks

so maybe its the pms maybe its just how life has unraveled itself. i saw a throwback pic today that just rattled my thoughts even more than it already has. ive relived the words over and over again and i regret and at the same time i needed to say them. see when you have a friendship for so many yrs theres always issues theres always things you dont agree on. but it has come to a quiet time and i dont know how to handle it. she's probablly mad at me maybe she doesnt care. but no matter what ill always care. im not in a chill mood, im back to the loner status it actually includes everyone this time. i'd like to crawl up in my bed and sleep but i cant i have to get up and atleast eat. yes its the pms it has me emotional it has me upset. im in pain in more ways than one. im sorry. but sometimes life has to unravel itself the way it did. im always here, still. im just on my me time. like everyone has had. im hungry... for all the great things life can bring. but im lost in this crooked path ive chosen.

PS. im probablly the most stubborn person in this world, i can hardly let "im sorry" come out of my mouth and sometimes i say things i dont mean, sometimes i reject others when i really need them there, sometimes i cant be there, but im sorry it just doesnt come out the right way.. it just doesnnnnntt. =/